honesty [07 Oct 2007|04:59pm] I don't know why, but I always seem to keep everyone at a certain distance. Yes, I'm having a good time. Yes, I'm in a good mood. No, I'm not mad about that. Yes, I want to be here. I feel like I am constantly making everyone feel like I dont appreicate their company, and I am not either having a good time or i'm upset about something. Im a lot more easy going than people think. I can have a great time just goofing around, and not really doing much of anything. I'm sorry. I need to work on this. read (1) comment

IMPORTANT. [12 Mar 2007|02:01pm] I realllly NEED another job! Does anyone know where I can get one? that pays decent? read (1) comment

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRISTOPHER. [14 Nov 2006|12:31pm] I doubt you'll even read this but.. [14 Nov 2005 | 11:02am] Happy Birthday. We weren't speaking on your birthday last year, or this year so.. Happy birthday 19 & 20. Well for the first time in 3 years we are actually talking, and were friends <3 Happy Birthday 21! I think were getting along pretty good actually, and I think ive realized my problem with Chris isn't that I cant understand why he wont be with me, its more that I don't think I can accept that I wasted almost 2 years on trying to make him happy, and trying to get him to want to be with me. I think I kept trying for so long to be in a relationship with him just so I could say that it was worth it. It was worth all those tears and it was worth all of the bullshit I put up with because it worked out in the end... but it hasn't and thats my problem. I have been trying to meet new people though. Im talking to a few guys, but none of them keep my mind off of Chris. I actually just compare them to him, and then I push them away. Anyway I am moving out in January. Jessica and I are getting a place in Lowell. It will be really nice to get away from home I think a lot of things will change <3 read (3) comment

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