and your to blame..Darlin' you give love, a bad name...

honesty

2007-10-07T21:14:19Z

I don't know why, but I always seem to keep everyone at a certain distance. Yes, I'm having a good time. Yes, I'm in a good mood. No, I'm not mad about that. Yes, I want to be here. I feel like I am constantly making everyone feel like I dont appreicate their company, and I am not either having a good time or i'm upset about something. Im a lot more easy going than people think. I can have a great time just goofing around, and not really doing much of anything. I'm sorry. I need to work on this.

IMPORTANT.

2007-03-12T18:04:45Z

I realllly NEED another job! Does anyone know where I can get one? that pays decent?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRISTOPHER.

2006-11-14T16:31:34Z

I doubt you'll even read this but.. [14 Nov 2005 | 11:02am] Happy Birthday. We weren't speaking on your birthday last year, or this year so.. Happy birthday 19 & 20.

Well for the first time in 3 years we are actually talking, and were friends <3 Happy Birthday 21!

I think were getting along pretty good actually, and I think ive realized my problem with Chris isn't that I cant understand why he wont be with me, its more that I don't think I can accept that I wasted almost 2 years on trying to make him happy, and trying to get him to want to be with me. I think I kept trying for so long to be in a relationship with him just so I could say that it was worth it. It was worth all those tears and it was worth all of the bullshit I put up with because it worked out in the end... but it hasn't and thats my problem. I have been trying to meet new people though. Im talking to a few guys, but none of them keep my mind off of Chris. I actually just compare them to him, and then I push them away.

Anyway I am moving out in January. Jessica and I are getting a place in Lowell. It will be really nice to get away from home I think a lot of things will change <3

MEMO TO MYSELF SO I DONT FUCK UP AGAIN.

2006-09-22T06:05:46Z

1:45:55 AM paristheme:
i dont give a shit about the stupid stuff, but you have gone to such far extents to make me believe you and make me trust what you say
1:45:58 AM paristheme:
but then you lied again
1:46:05 AM paristheme:
and I thought that was done with
1:46:17 AM paristheme:
but you did it all again over the same exact shit
1:48:10 AM paristheme:
can you say something
1:48:15 AM loudsystms:
i havent lied about everything
1:48:26 AM paristheme:
oh thats comforting
1:48:32 AM loudsystms:
well i havent
1:48:46 AM paristheme:
im glad it hasnt been every word out of your mouth
1:48:48 AM paristheme:
just most
1:48:59 AM loudsystms:
also untrue
1:49:05 AM loudsystms:
i have lied about specific things
1:49:15 AM paristheme:
important thigns
1:49:22 AM loudsystms:
maybe so
1:49:23 AM paristheme:
things that matter
1:49:25 AM paristheme:
things that hurt
1:49:36 AM paristheme:
so you dont have any reasoning?!
1:50:02 AM loudsystms:
because it got me what i wanted at the time i suppose
1:51:10 AM loudsystms:
thats the reason why most people lie
1:51:16 AM loudsystms:
to make things go in their favor
1:52:05 AM paristheme:
well the truth hurts, but I guess it feels better than being lied to.

elephant__shoe @ 2006-09-01T16:52:00

2006-09-01T20:53:21Z

"I would ask my mom if she could get me a star from the sky that would be my night light. When I got to sleep it would shine in my eye. It would be really nice and shiny. It would be pointy so no one would steal it when I go to sleep. I would pick my mom because my dad is gone because he owns his own company and he is gone."

elephant__shoe @ 2006-08-27T14:55:00

2006-08-27T19:18:04Z

I enjoy having a lot of time to myself right now. I know I haven't been around a lot, or really called anyone but right now I need to stay focused on things that are important to me. Im probably the happiest ive ever been, and im going to keep things that way. I'm sorry, but no one is going to change my mind or tell me im doing something wrong. As many of you do know I gave up drinking, and if that means none of my friends can make an effort to hang out without alcohol involved.. well you were never my friend in the first place, and I really dont care if I hear from you again. <3

elephant__shoe @ 2006-08-10T22:36:00

2006-08-11T02:44:06Z

a lot of things in my life are changing.. fast. im looking forward to it though. im also looking forward to telling most of the people I once considerd a friend to fuck off because honestly I only get a phone call when you want to come to a party im throwing, you need a ride somewhere or you need someone to vent to. I'm sorry, but im looking out for myself for once in my life.

and if this offends you, please do me a favor and insted of talking about it with everyone else.. say something to me.

elephant__shoe @ 2006-06-24T12:33:00

2006-06-24T16:33:42Z

~~this summer could be like it was 2 years ago <3~~

JUST KIDDING.

elephant__shoe @ 2006-05-13T13:30:00

2006-05-13T17:30:23Z

well, thats never going to happen again.

elephant__shoe @ 2006-05-05T13:17:00

2006-05-05T17:18:32Z

I feel as if everyone around me is changing, and i'm just falling behind. Im not ready for this.

sad but true.

2006-04-28T14:47:09Z

I'm in debt thousands of dollars. Im currently driving with no insurance. I have no idea what I want to do with my life. I think I have a warrent out for my arrest because I'm an idiot and forgot to pay my excise taxes. I am so dissapointed with myself right now, but yet have no motivation to get my life on track.

Im kind of pathetic.

Finally.

2006-03-20T04:00:12Z

LOLLAPALOOZA PERFORMANCE ANNOUNCED
We are happy to announce we will be playing Lollapalooza this year. We are not sure of the exact time or date yet but the festival runs August 4th-6th at Grant Park in Chicago, IL.

SO WHO IS COMING WITH ME TO GO SEE CURSIVE?

elephant__shoe @ 2006-02-27T12:24:00

2006-02-27T17:29:18Z

I need to start showing the people I love how much I actually do love them.

I really do love you guys. so much. please believe me.

let it be.

2006-01-06T19:02:32Z

So my life has changed quite a bit in the past few weeks. I no longer go to school at blaine. I'm taking business management @ necco. I still want to do make-up, but not hair. I wont be able to go to school for just make-up though unless I move to california, and if you know me at all you know thats not happening. I plan on going to school for business management as a back up plan, and then i'll work at one of the make up counters at the mall. I also plan on keeping my job I have now, but im moving to the other office in Andover. I will be working with the helpdesk/operations so I think i'll get a raise. My lancer that I bought not even 2 months ago is totaled so I will be buying a new car this week or when I get a check from my insurance company which will hopefully be enough for a down payment on a new car. Well I have a rental for a few weeks or till I buy a new car. So call me. lets hang out!

elephant__shoe @ 2006-01-02T03:10:00

2006-01-02T08:20:15Z

I really hope 2006 is better than 2005 <3

elephant__shoe @ 2005-11-29T22:58:00

2005-11-30T03:58:55Z

Oh no
Here comes that sun again
That means another day
Without you my friend

And it hurts me
To look into the mirror at myself
And it hurts even more
To have to be with somebody else
And it's so hard to do
And so easy to say
But sometimes
Sometimes you just have to walk away
Walk away

With so many people
To love in my life
Why do I worry
About one

But you put the happy
In my ness
You put the good times
Into my fun
And it's so hard to do
And so easy to say
But sometimes
Sometimes you just have to walk away
Walk away
And head for the door

We've tried the goodbye
So many days
We walk in the same direction
So that we could never stray
They say if you love somebody
Than you have got to set them free
But I would rather be locked to you
Than live in this pain and misery

They say time will
Make all this go away
But it's time that has taken my tomorrows
And turned them into yesterdays
And once again that rising sun
Is droppin' on down
And once again you my friend
Are nowhere to be found
And it's so hard to do
And so easy to say
But sometimes
Sometimes you just have to walk away
Walk away
And head for the door
You just walk away
Walk away

I doubt you'll even read this but..

2005-11-14T16:14:11Z

Happy Birthday. We weren't speaking on your birthday last year, or this year so.. Happy birthday 19 & 20.

i'll shine your shoes

2005-11-08T04:50:29Z

+ school
- driving a rent-a-car
+ meeting new people
- i'm broke
+ i'm over you
- "why did you do that to her?" your answer " because I could"
+ helpdesk is moving to andover in the spring
+ I don't have to be at work till 12:00 on Sunday (this hasnt happend in months)
+ jude law

I'm going to watch I Heart Huckabee & go to sleep <3

worst day ever.

2005-11-02T03:25:49Z

Some idiot crashed into me today while I was driving on salem st.
In this picture you cant see the passangers side, but the door wont even open.
My baby is totaled : ( I'm okay though. I find out all my xray results tomorrow.

elephant__shoe @ 2005-10-31T10:06:00

2005-10-31T15:08:23Z

http://makeyourcosmetics.com/

go there!! I love it.

Road trip anyone?

2005-10-25T02:27:58Z

I really wish I had more time to travel. My fathers friend just got back from a trip he took. It took him 72 days on a motorcycle to go to every state in the US. I wish I could do something like that..not on a motorcycle, but my car and a few friends. I was filling out
You are

[ ] really short under 5'2
[x] 5'2 -5'6"
[ ] 5'7'' more medium then short
[ ] in between 5'7" - 6'
[ ] tall

[ ] blonde
[ ] redhead
[x] brunette
[ ] dirty blonde/brownish
[ ] black
[ ] at the moment brown
[ ] rainbows
(i have been all of the bolded in my life)

[ ] blue-eyed
[x] brown-eyed
[ ] green-eyed
[ ] hazel eyed
[ ] gold/gray-eyed
[ ] silver/gray- eyed

[ ] glasses
[ ] contacts

[x] short hair
[ ] medium
[ ] long hair

Your nationality includes...

[ ] brazilian
[ ] chinese
[ ] indian
[ ] taiwanese
[ ] japanese
[ ] hispanic
[ ] nicoya
[ ] puerto rican
[ ] chicana
[ ] italian
[x] scottish
[ ] filipino
[ ] hawaiian
[ ] armenian
[ ] dutch
[ ] french
[x] german
[x] irish
[ ] greek
[ ] portuguese
[ ] polish
[x] english
[ ] korean
[ ] jamacian
[ ] canadian
[ ] lithuanian
[ ] native american
[ ] russian
[ ] swedish
[ ] african
[ ] peruvian
[ ] hungarian
[ ] thai
[ ] czech-slovakian
[ ] you aren't sure
[ ] romanian
[ ] finnish
[ ] egyptian
[ ] welsh
[x] norweigian
[ ] croatian
[ ] austrian
[ ] persian
[ ] spanish
[ ] ukranian

Your favorite color(s) are?
[ ]red
[ ] khaki
[x] pink
[x] yellow
[x]black
[ ] green
[ ] blue
[x] white
[ ]silver
[ ] purple
[x] brown
[ ]orange
[ ] clear
[x] grey

Some sports/physical things you have done at least once in life [not counting what they make you do in PE]
[x] soccer
[ ] cheerleading
[ ] dancing
[ ] lacrosse
[ ] field hockey
[ ] hockey
[ ] football
[ ] softball
[ ] ice skating
[ ] wrestling
[ ] gymnastics
[ ] track/cross country
[x] basketball
[ ] baseball
[ ] golf
[x] playing music
[x] hiking
[x] kayaking
[x] camping
[ ] horseback riding
[ ] tennis
[ ] volleyball
[x] martial arts
[ ] rugby
[ ] frisby golf
[ ] surfing
[ ] motocross
[ ] bmx
[ ] wakeboarding
[ ] snowboarding
[ ]skiing
[ ] skateboarding

Your personality is sometimes...
[x] talkative
[x] shy
[x] funny
[x] serious
[ ] bubbly
[ ] spazzy
[x] fun loving
[x] laid back
[x] strict
[ ] hyper
[x] weird
[ ] ditzy
[x] sarcastic
[x] slow

The music you like is?
[x] classic rock
[x] rap
[x] alternative
[x] rock
[x] pop
[ ] country
[ ] r&b
[ ] slow jams
[ ] christian
[ ] classical
[x] techno
[x] oldies
[ ] punk
[ ] metal
[ ] reggae
[x] emo
[x] screamo
[ ] latin
[ ] hardcore
[ ] noise
[ ] ska
[x] 80's
[ ] reggaeton
[ ] dancehall
[x] hip hop
[x] indie

The pets you have had?
[x] cat
[x] dog
[ ] lizard
[ ] rat
[ ] ferret
[ ] rabbit
[x] fish
[ ] ducks
[ ] chickens
[ ] cow
[ ] rooster
[ ] horse(s)
[x] bird
[x] frog
[x] hermit crab
[ ] pigs
[ ] prarie dog
[ ] none
[x] turtle
[ ] hamster
[ ] snake
[ ] gerbil
[ ] guinea pig
[ ] goats
[ ] chinchilla
[ ] tarantula
[ ] squirrel
[ ] grasshopper
[ ] turkey
[ ] geese
[ ] pheasant

Clothes you like to wear are?
[x] shirts
[x] sweatshirts
[x] sneakers
[x] jeans
[x] flip-flops
[ ] sweatpants
[ ] hats

Clothing Brands you like?
[ ] American Eagle
[ ] Hollister
[ ] Abercrombie & Fitch
[ ] Billabong
[ ] O'neil
[ ] Aeropostale
[ ] Krew
[ ] volcom
[ ] roxy
[ ] anything from Nordstrom

Shoe Brands?
[ ] Nike
[ ] Adidas
[ ] K Swiss
[ ] Vans
[ ] Etnies
[ ] chucks
[ ] DC'S
[ ] Ipath
[ ] Duffs
[ ] Steve Madden
[ ] Nine West

States I have been to.
[ ] Alabama
[x] Alaska
[ ] Arizona
[ ] Arkansas
[ ] California
[ ] Colorado
[x] Connecticut
[x] Delaware
[x] Florida
[x] Georgia
[ ] Hawaii
[ ] Idaho
[x] Illinois
[ ] Indiana
[ ] Iowa
[ ] Kansas
[ ] Kentucky
[ ] Louisianna
[x] Maine
[x] Maryland
[x] Massachusetts
[ ] Michigan
[ ] Minnesota
[x] Mississippi
[ ] Missouri
[ ] Montana
[ ] Nebraska
[ ] Nevada
[x] New Hampshire
[x] New Jersey
[ ] New Mexico
[x] New York
[x] North Carolina
[ ] North Dakota
[ ] Ohio
[ ] Oklahoma
[ ] Oregon
[x] Pennsylvania
[x] Rhode Island
[ ] South Carolina
[ ] South Dakota
[ ] Tennessee
[ ] Texas
[ ] Utah
[x] Vermont
[x] Virginia
[x] Washington
[ ] West Virginia
[ ] Wisconsin
[ ] Wyoming

and I realized I haven't been to as many states as I thought. I have a lot more to go. I know I cant take 72 days off or even close to that, but maybe a week? anyone interested? I'd like to drive from Massachusetts to California.

elephant__shoe @ 2005-10-23T23:24:00

2005-10-24T03:35:12Z

Everything in my life right now is going well.
I really hope things stay like this <3

+ I still really like my job.
+ I have money.
+ I love my new car.
+ I start school on the 7th.
+ I feel a lot healthier.
+ I learned to let go.
+ Ive been productive.

i apologize once again.

2005-10-16T19:57:50Z

i wish silly stuff like that didn't get me upset.
i wish i could be happy for you.

i guess im selfish. i'm sorry.

Real new car

2005-10-12T00:30:35Z

So everyone told me that buying a Kia was a bad idea so I changed my mind.
I bought a mitsubishi lancer, its cute & silver. I pick it up tomorrow <3

elephant__shoe @ 2005-10-11T13:55:00

2005-10-11T17:57:01Z

i can't breathe with these words in my mouth
but i'm not going to say them.